thursday - 10/8/06

// feeling :: distressed
// prayer for :: Aaron's illness


This is kind of a personal entry that I just need to express my current thoughts and feelings.

I dont know why, but I went into Bryan's webpage..And I could picture his life. I guess its going great for him right now..But I cant help but think..Has he already forgotten me.

I know its a stupid thing right now to wonder about these things, especially when I've already made a public decision to obey and just let him go.

I cant confirm 100% that I'm over him. I've stopped thinking about him and started thinking about God. But somehow there's an empty space inside of me thats waiting to be filled up by a special someone. Perhaps right now the reason I'm feeling this way is because everywhere I go, I see couples together. And its kind of hard for me..

Not like I'm desperate for someone..Ah what am I talking about.. *sigh*

I just miss having a purpose in life.

Is he happier without me as a friend? I need Jesus more than ever now.